terajk

The state of nenena's birthday present is as follows:

( Short, but cut to spare you anyway )

Self, I don't care if someone requested Disgaea 4: A Promise Unforgotten for Yuletide and it has no offers thusfar; we are not signing up for Yuletide. (We are nowhere near done with our femslash12 assignment, jeez.) If we want to later, we can write it as a New Year's Resolution thingie.

This meme is still going on.

Signups are open for femslash12, operation: Azula, Katara and Toph get all the babes the multifandom femslash fic exchange/athon! I'm still fiddling with my signup. Come play!

I've never done this exchange before, and am really super nervous, as my sexual orientation is "asexual with a romantic preference for ladies that I have limited experience with in real life." The kinds of things I have strong feelings for aren't necessarily romantic (hand-holding! sharing a bed! sharing food! cuddles!--*will edit signup to offer Aoi Hana after posting this, as I can't believe I FORGOT*), and in my writing I never know if I've shipped people or not. Also, while I write all kinds of kinky fic, I write porn only slightly better than I write maps. D:

After a re-read of Azumanga Daioh I find myself craving (Kagura)&/Osaka&/Tomo. Or Tomo roleplaying as Fujiko Mine. Which is kind of silly, as my memories of Lupin III are vague as hell and almost none of them involve Fujiko except as a name Lupin mentioned a lot. (Luckily, Fujiko has her own anime now!)

Also, for anyone so inclined, my AIM chat name is terajk (boring, I know)

I have TWO SPACES left on my kink_bingo card for my "characters with disabilities" line. I would like to fill them. One is "electricity." I have:

• Two PWD with electricity-based powers. One is an asshole; (also, the person I'd ship her with refuses to do this square, for several good reasons); the other is not.
• Two PWD with my navigational impairment. One is an asshole; the other is not. (Two points for Marie Mjolnir! And half a point for Azula, because even though she is a horrible person she is at least honest about it, unlike Ryouga, who I have had lots of trouble writing lately because CANNOT UNSEE THE FEDEX ARROWS EVERYWHERE.)
• Teo, who would TOTALLY help discover/invent electricity and then use it for fun. (I am inclined to ship Teo with Sokka, b/c SCIENCEBROS.) But then I would have to do, like, actual science. Unless I ship him/the both of them with Aang, who is the Avatar and could probably learn lightningbending and is not an asshole.
• nenena's fabulous Soul Eater thinky-thoughts percolating in my brain, and thus:
• A burning desire to put Sid and Stein together--especially when they were students and Sid was, you know, alive--and see what happens.
• A burning desire for Maka, Tsubaki, Liz, Patti (and maybe Marie) and Kid to go on an adventure, and Kid is like, "I am the only dude in the room. Uh" and I am like: "AHAHAHAHAHAHA!" (But then I feel bad, because I replaced Maka's weapon and I have trouble writing Soul to begin with.)
• MARIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! But when I think of "Marie" and "electricity kink" I can only think of the obvious, which has been done for kink_bingo already :(

I have to write about things in public before I write them especially when my mother is no help which is why I am horrible at anonymous fic exchanges.

Or: I am lost in the Soul Eater disability meta.

( Spoilers for said meta, although they're rambly and may not make sense )

 On the one hand, the disability in Soul Eater meta is coming along. (It is scary and fun!)  At this point, I could call it: Why Death the Kid is an Effing Brilliant Subversion of Lovecraftian Mad Gods, with Pictures.

On the other hand, Lovecraft is an impenetrable bastard.

On the other hand (hey, it's Lovecraft), I can totally get books through interlibary loan. BOSS!

So,white_lotus fic is now twice as long as the longest thing I’ve ever written. It is a mess, goes nowhere, and every time I look at it I panic. It looks like it’s gone somewhere, though, because I keep writing bits I feel like writing, even if they aren’t supposed to happen yet. The problem is, it needs an actual plot and I DON’T WRITE PLOT. And I don’t know how to get the plot to start. I’m of half a mind just to scrap the whole thing, or even see if I can expand bits I’ve written into something that doesn’t need a plot. (This seems like the best plan.)

The problem is, I panic every time I think about it, and then avoid it. (This is what I do, especially when something seems too “big”) I was doing so well when I just thought of it in little pieces, but then I was all: “I’m writing this epic thing!” and then everything broke. (Today I managed to write 100 words, which is pretty good, but still no plot.)

But! I like the plot! It would totally be a story I’d read if I didn’t have to write the damn thing. People in my f-list who write long, plotty things (or just long things--the longest thing I’ve written before this was 1400+ words), HOW DO YOU DO IT?

 
One level left in the boring game I am supposed to be reviewing! Yay! (OMG, internet, it is SO BORING. Sadly. I have to write at least 600 words about it, and I can only think of one, which is "meh.") ETA: And...done!

Also, a few straggling Christmas cards left! ETA: And...done!

And I really, really, really will work on my white_lotus  fic today. (As with something I wrote for white_lotus last year, it is on the one hand the most ambitious thing I have ever written and on the other won't be anonymous to ANYONE.) So obviously, I am terrified of it, because OH MY GOODNESS WHAT HAVE I DONE? Someone kick me in the pants.

( cut for Ranma 1/2 silliness and also discussion of incest )